I'm At A Loss For Words... And I Can't Say Anything Else Except "Sorry"

I'm doing a good job holding back the tears. The moment he said, "I'm not sure," I thought I'd break down and cry. Instead, I felt a sharp, stabbing pain to my chest, closed my eyes, and immersed myself in the hurt. I opened my eyes and continued typing.

"If you're unsure about that... ewan ko... maybe not... At least I heard it straight from you."

God. Somebody please kill me.